"Lord I'm amazed by YOU"

I was telling a good friend of mine about how strange this past week had been with a number of people (men) from my past coming back into my life at random. As the words were coming from me it dawned on me that it was HIS work, HIS hand in it all. I had been so blown away by it all and just thought this had been a crazy/random week. But reflecting on it, just stopping - taking a breath; it was HIM showing me that HE had been listening and reminding me how amazing HE is.

For the past couple weeks I've been feeling down and lonely. I'll admit that there are times when being single gets to me. I look forward to the day when I am in a relationship/married. I definitely don't want to be in just anything so that I'm not single. But being single does take its toll on me.

Last week three different men from my past (all friends from when I was at the Maritime Academy) came back into my life. Each one of them has played a large part in who I am and have always meant more to me than I think I could ever tell them or than they ever knew. One of them as been there through the years, but not consistently (long distance sort of thing). He was my very best friend and really helped me get through school/life. Another one has always been in and out. We've always had a strange friendship - love/hate brother/sister kind, but it has meant a lot to me and has made a huge impact. Lastly the one who I looked up to - he was the older brother type. I never thought I'd hear from him again and then there he was. And to think he has lived near the same area as I have all these years. They are amazing men who I cherish and will always have great love for. Two of them have great wives and wonderful children. I get so much joy from seeing how life has turned out for them.

So here I am amazed by GOD and how HE fills my heart and takes away that loneliness. Sure it isn't what I had thought was missing or needed. Isn't that how it always is.

Sunday at church we sang "Lord I'm amazed by YOU, Lord I'm amazed by YOU and how YOU love me." It just reaffirmed it all. When I had started too sink into "my world"; HE shows HIS love and gives me just want I need - the ones I need. How can I feel lonely when my life has so many amazing people in it / awesome male figures. I made a comment last week how I couldn't find any joy and now as I type this - I am full of joy, amazement and HIS love.

Thank you God for blessing my life and constantly amazing me. I pray that I remember more often to stop and see YOU and YOUR works.